Scott Patrick, Mike Newport, Ruth Vein.....
Men and Women who loved the Lord and were called home.
Each one leaving behind dearly loved ones......children, spouses, families and friends.
Each one leaving behind a legacy of faith and hope for all to follow.
Each one missed.
May we remember the impact they have had on our lives and hold close to our hearts the hopes they shared for those left behind.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Pondering Thoughts
"I lift up my eyes to the hills~
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip~
He who watches over you will not slumber of sleep.
The Lord watches over you~
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
not the moon by night."
Psalm 121:1-6
I'm back to feeling like me, but this may not be a good thing.
I am having anxiety again, I am overwhelmed, stuff is annoying me
more and more that didn't when I was on meds.
I'm still working 6-7 days a week, and MUST give my notice at The Gardens.
(Kinda hard to do after a GREAT review that gushed with praise!)
I really have no marriage to speak of. My daughter and I don't get along at all.
Josh and Jaycob don't need me anymore. My friends are all busy.....
I'm feeling sorry for myself right now.
We have not paid mortgage in 3 months! What is going to happen?
I have not been to church in 3 months.....maybe once or twice at the most.
I am tired all the time, so can't find time to be alone with God.
What is next.
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip~
He who watches over you will not slumber of sleep.
The Lord watches over you~
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
not the moon by night."
Psalm 121:1-6
I'm back to feeling like me, but this may not be a good thing.
I am having anxiety again, I am overwhelmed, stuff is annoying me
more and more that didn't when I was on meds.
I'm still working 6-7 days a week, and MUST give my notice at The Gardens.
(Kinda hard to do after a GREAT review that gushed with praise!)
I really have no marriage to speak of. My daughter and I don't get along at all.
Josh and Jaycob don't need me anymore. My friends are all busy.....
I'm feeling sorry for myself right now.
We have not paid mortgage in 3 months! What is going to happen?
I have not been to church in 3 months.....maybe once or twice at the most.
I am tired all the time, so can't find time to be alone with God.
What is next.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Waiting for instruction...
I have learned some things that I am not quite sure how to respond to.
My husband continues to live in a life of lies...lies upon lies upon lies.
And he makes up more lies and excuses to cover the lies!
How does someone do this for so many years without going absolutely bonkers??
God, do you see this?
Are you aware?
Will you ever reveal THE TRUTH??
After returning from an incredible time at Sundown Ranch, holding now a new set of tools to live by, and having a new hope for our family.......I wonder HOW healing will ever occur when ONE PERSON continues to SABOTAGE all efforts to restore.
Ron enables Josh....so much so that he actually PARTIED with him on the way to rehab????
What kind of a father does that????
Ron allows Katie to drink and stay out all night, never holding her accountable to anything! She is 17 and doesn't even have a job yet?
How much longer, Lord?? And I know that I am not to move forward with any plans of my own!
I have tried that and it hasn't gotten me anywhere!
"We did not inquire of Him about how to do it in the prescribed way." 1 Chronicles 15:13
"I call on the Lord in my distress, and He answers me.
Save me, O Lord, from lying lips and from deceitful tongues.
What will he do to you, and what more besides, O deceitful tongue?
He will punish you with a warrior's sharp arrows, with burning coals of the broom tree.
Woe to me that I dwell in Meshech, that I live among the tents of Kedar!
Too long have lived among those who hate peace.
I am a woman of peace; but when I speak, they are for war."
Psalm 120
My husband continues to live in a life of lies...lies upon lies upon lies.
And he makes up more lies and excuses to cover the lies!
How does someone do this for so many years without going absolutely bonkers??
God, do you see this?
Are you aware?
Will you ever reveal THE TRUTH??
After returning from an incredible time at Sundown Ranch, holding now a new set of tools to live by, and having a new hope for our family.......I wonder HOW healing will ever occur when ONE PERSON continues to SABOTAGE all efforts to restore.
Ron enables Josh....so much so that he actually PARTIED with him on the way to rehab????
What kind of a father does that????
Ron allows Katie to drink and stay out all night, never holding her accountable to anything! She is 17 and doesn't even have a job yet?
How much longer, Lord?? And I know that I am not to move forward with any plans of my own!
I have tried that and it hasn't gotten me anywhere!
"We did not inquire of Him about how to do it in the prescribed way." 1 Chronicles 15:13
"I call on the Lord in my distress, and He answers me.
Save me, O Lord, from lying lips and from deceitful tongues.
What will he do to you, and what more besides, O deceitful tongue?
He will punish you with a warrior's sharp arrows, with burning coals of the broom tree.
Woe to me that I dwell in Meshech, that I live among the tents of Kedar!
Too long have lived among those who hate peace.
I am a woman of peace; but when I speak, they are for war."
Psalm 120
Anne-isms
DON'T JUST "go through the motions"!
LIVE in the MOMENT!!
POSITIONED to SERVE before POSTIONED to LEAD!
LIVE in the MOMENT!!
POSITIONED to SERVE before POSTIONED to LEAD!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
ANSWERS......for today.
I am convinced that working 6 days a week is something I can only do in a strength that is not my own. Can I just make it to the summer? To cover Katie's school expenses? I am getting tired and I am never home! Although, I am not needed at home like I have been in the past.
Katie is thriving at school! She is even on Honor Roll! WOW! John and Melissa are looking to buy a house, so will be moving out perhaps by summer. Josh has been living a life of lies and struggles, and really needs to get out on his own! And Jaycob can always come home to us, whether Josh lives there or not.
I'm really enjoying the escrow job.......have started to OWN my position and see a future here also. I have alot of flexibility with the job. I spoke with Larry about the permanance of my position at Sammamish Escrow, and he was convincing enough to make me want to really dive in. I love that I am a part of a team! And I keep growing and learning, too.
What am I to do about The Gardens job, though? I will have to wait on this one.
I am right where I need to be for TODAY!!
Katie is thriving at school! She is even on Honor Roll! WOW! John and Melissa are looking to buy a house, so will be moving out perhaps by summer. Josh has been living a life of lies and struggles, and really needs to get out on his own! And Jaycob can always come home to us, whether Josh lives there or not.
I'm really enjoying the escrow job.......have started to OWN my position and see a future here also. I have alot of flexibility with the job. I spoke with Larry about the permanance of my position at Sammamish Escrow, and he was convincing enough to make me want to really dive in. I love that I am a part of a team! And I keep growing and learning, too.
What am I to do about The Gardens job, though? I will have to wait on this one.
I am right where I need to be for TODAY!!
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Waiting......patiently??
If we never took any risks, played it safe, stayed in the comfortable.......denied the callings and desires of our hearts......where would that take us?
Do we trust God enough to "lay out there" what we think we'd like to do/have?
For me, I am working 7 days a week. Five days at Sammamish Escrow, two days at The Gardens.
Both jobs are amazing, fun, challenging, interesting, up-my-alley jobs!
The people I work with and for are all GREAT people!
The opportunities for growth and advancement are possible with both companies.
But how long can I work seven days a week? Or even six (Mondays off to play with Jaycob)?
If I could choose, which would I choose?
I would like my weekends back, for sure!
My heart is in Bellevue and with serving people.
I would like to have a career....I never really thought I would, but I do! I really like working!
So what would be the risk and speaking out what I truly want? Why do I feel I need to Play It Safe? I know with the Lord, He has a plan, so I wait without moving. But I have to say out loud, to Him, that I do trust Him. And what I want is.........to work for ERA Living full-time, eventually moving from Front Desk into a sales/marketing position. I love to network. I know this community. I have alot of contacts. I could see me in this position someday.
But I also thought I saw me as a Director for BeautiControl, and that never happened.
And why do I need to SEE?
"Since ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides you, who acts on behalf of those who wait for him.
You come to the help of those who gladly do right, who remember your ways." Isaiah 64:4,5
Bottom line:
I am ready!
I will wait....and watch....and trust.
But I will be ready when the time comes! I will not miss out!
This is living!
Do we trust God enough to "lay out there" what we think we'd like to do/have?
For me, I am working 7 days a week. Five days at Sammamish Escrow, two days at The Gardens.
Both jobs are amazing, fun, challenging, interesting, up-my-alley jobs!
The people I work with and for are all GREAT people!
The opportunities for growth and advancement are possible with both companies.
But how long can I work seven days a week? Or even six (Mondays off to play with Jaycob)?
If I could choose, which would I choose?
I would like my weekends back, for sure!
My heart is in Bellevue and with serving people.
I would like to have a career....I never really thought I would, but I do! I really like working!
So what would be the risk and speaking out what I truly want? Why do I feel I need to Play It Safe? I know with the Lord, He has a plan, so I wait without moving. But I have to say out loud, to Him, that I do trust Him. And what I want is.........to work for ERA Living full-time, eventually moving from Front Desk into a sales/marketing position. I love to network. I know this community. I have alot of contacts. I could see me in this position someday.
But I also thought I saw me as a Director for BeautiControl, and that never happened.
And why do I need to SEE?
"Since ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides you, who acts on behalf of those who wait for him.
You come to the help of those who gladly do right, who remember your ways." Isaiah 64:4,5
Bottom line:
I am ready!
I will wait....and watch....and trust.
But I will be ready when the time comes! I will not miss out!
This is living!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
PRAYER request...
FATHER....
If it be in Your will, I ask that Jaycob could attend Little Miracles Preschool this fall on Mon-Wed-Fri. You alone know his needs and what would be best for him. You alone know where the resources would come from. I place this in Your faithful hands. Amen.
If it be in Your will, I ask that Jaycob could attend Little Miracles Preschool this fall on Mon-Wed-Fri. You alone know his needs and what would be best for him. You alone know where the resources would come from. I place this in Your faithful hands. Amen.
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