Changing Directions

So many changes this year....and yet still more to come! How long do I ride with the wind? When will it be time for me to "'move" in my own (God directed) way?
I just returned from a Chamber Event on using Social Media Strategies as a way of connecting with perspective clients/current customers. I don't even have a venue in which to use these tools yet, but a passion for networking and building both professional and personal relationships fueled my fire during the entire event! I WANT so badly to have my own business, my own branding, my own unique purpose!!! WHEN????? HOW???? What do I need to do to prepare?
And where exactly do I want to work? Event planning? For church? For seniors? Marketing for Larry? Networking? Who for? Oh, Father......your word says that you have a plan for me.....direct me, I pray...to continue to wait or to do something. But what to do??? Work for Larry for another year? Until the dust settles with the divorce and move (out of the house)? Help me, Lord, to have patience.....give me peace.....calm my anxious heart!

Perfectly Positioned

Not what I saw coming, for sure! But do I ever really know what's around the bend? NO!
I think I do! I even start heading off in a certain direction, thinking..."this is the way...walk in it".
Quite honestly, if I look at my track record, I never end up where I thought I was headed!
The Lord knows the way I should go. He knows what is best for me. And He knows what is going to best bless me and prepare me.
SO here I am.....newly positioned. Yet without moving!
Lord, help me serve and honor You, first, and then those whom You have positioned me with.
I want to be content, too, where ever you place me. I am learning I actually do NOT need to position myself, that I do not need some important title and that God can use me and bless me right where I am.
My dream about working with seniors.....starting my own business....could easily be fulfilled in other ways. For instance, just go visit with seniors! They bring me so much joy! I don't need a title or position to love on seniors!! Perfectly positioned.....to serve and love and learn!

Losing ground....

Six months of seperation with no end in sight.
How much longer do I wait?
My feet feel like they are slipping. Am I losing ground?
A moment of doubt.....what about me?
Help me, Lord, to trust You. In my weakness, take my hand.

2010

No theme for 2010, but a commitment to take a new direction.
First, going on a mission!
Where and when? Only God knows at this point!
Perhaps a year of rest......as I wait for God to unveil what He has in store for me.
Listening intently to His voice.
Taking risks in being vulnerable, authentic, real, honest.....even if it hurts or is embarassing or awkward!

Trying to count my blessings.....

1. Katie has a job at ALDO shoe store in Bell Square
2. Josh has a job at Red Robin in Issaquah
3. I have a job at Sammamish Escrow
4. John has a job at Discount Tires
5. Melissa has a job at QFC
6. Ron still has a job for the City of Seattle
7. Jaycob stays in our home Fridays-Mondays consistantly

Headed Home...

Scott Patrick, Mike Newport, Ruth Vein.....
Men and Women who loved the Lord and were called home.
Each one leaving behind dearly loved ones......children, spouses, families and friends.
Each one leaving behind a legacy of faith and hope for all to follow.
Each one missed.
May we remember the impact they have had on our lives and hold close to our hearts the hopes they shared for those left behind.

Pondering Thoughts

"I lift up my eyes to the hills~
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip~
He who watches over you will not slumber of sleep.

The Lord watches over you~
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
not the moon by night."

Psalm 121:1-6

I'm back to feeling like me, but this may not be a good thing.
I am having anxiety again, I am overwhelmed, stuff is annoying me
more and more that didn't when I was on meds.

I'm still working 6-7 days a week, and MUST give my notice at The Gardens.
(Kinda hard to do after a GREAT review that gushed with praise!)
I really have no marriage to speak of. My daughter and I don't get along at all.
Josh and Jaycob don't need me anymore. My friends are all busy.....
I'm feeling sorry for myself right now.

We have not paid mortgage in 3 months! What is going to happen?
I have not been to church in 3 months.....maybe once or twice at the most.
I am tired all the time, so can't find time to be alone with God.

What is next.