Pondering Thoughts

"I lift up my eyes to the hills~
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip~
He who watches over you will not slumber of sleep.

The Lord watches over you~
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
not the moon by night."

Psalm 121:1-6

I'm back to feeling like me, but this may not be a good thing.
I am having anxiety again, I am overwhelmed, stuff is annoying me
more and more that didn't when I was on meds.

I'm still working 6-7 days a week, and MUST give my notice at The Gardens.
(Kinda hard to do after a GREAT review that gushed with praise!)
I really have no marriage to speak of. My daughter and I don't get along at all.
Josh and Jaycob don't need me anymore. My friends are all busy.....
I'm feeling sorry for myself right now.

We have not paid mortgage in 3 months! What is going to happen?
I have not been to church in 3 months.....maybe once or twice at the most.
I am tired all the time, so can't find time to be alone with God.

What is next.

Waiting for instruction...

I have learned some things that I am not quite sure how to respond to.
My husband continues to live in a life of lies...lies upon lies upon lies.
And he makes up more lies and excuses to cover the lies!
How does someone do this for so many years without going absolutely bonkers??
God, do you see this?
Are you aware?
Will you ever reveal THE TRUTH??
After returning from an incredible time at Sundown Ranch, holding now a new set of tools to live by, and having a new hope for our family.......I wonder HOW healing will ever occur when ONE PERSON continues to SABOTAGE all efforts to restore.
Ron enables Josh....so much so that he actually PARTIED with him on the way to rehab????
What kind of a father does that????
Ron allows Katie to drink and stay out all night, never holding her accountable to anything! She is 17 and doesn't even have a job yet?

How much longer, Lord?? And I know that I am not to move forward with any plans of my own!
I have tried that and it hasn't gotten me anywhere!
"We did not inquire of Him about how to do it in the prescribed way." 1 Chronicles 15:13

"I call on the Lord in my distress, and He answers me.
Save me, O Lord, from lying lips and from deceitful tongues.
What will he do to you, and what more besides, O deceitful tongue?
He will punish you with a warrior's sharp arrows, with burning coals of the broom tree.

Woe to me that I dwell in Meshech, that I live among the tents of Kedar!
Too long have lived among those who hate peace.
I am a woman of peace; but when I speak, they are for war."
Psalm 120

Anne-isms

DON'T JUST "go through the motions"!
LIVE in the MOMENT!!



POSITIONED to SERVE before POSTIONED to LEAD!