What am I doing??
I am not the one who is to rescue us.
Why do I do this?
And the really screwed thing is that my husband allows it! He doesn't EVER go over the top or go the extra mile to make things happen. Why should I?
He is lazy and selfish and vain!
He is headed for disaster and I will not let him take me with him!!
I feel SO STUPID thinking things were actually getting better.
But they aren't...not with him, at least. He is still 'ol Ron and will never change.
I am back at this place where I don't want to live with "dear 'ol Ron". I'm done with Mr. "Nice GUy"...he really isn't that nice. He is passive and manipulative and hurtful!
What does he do for me? Nothing! Everything he does do, is for his own benefit.
I want to be LOVED, CHERISHED, UNITED.......he can't nor won't ever be able to treat me the way I am created to be treated because he refuses to submit to Christ. He won't be able to be the man I need with out Christ.
OOHHH I am so mad at myself for falling for this AGAIN!
I want to get off this merry-go-round!
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